The big lesson is: I need to stop worrying about things I cannot control. Youda thunk at my age I would have figured that out by now. But it hasn’t sunk in. Until this past year. Now that doesn’t mean I’m throwing my hands up in the air and saying eff it, I can’t control it, so why worry. Nope, 2011 taught me that while I can’t control what life throws at the ones I love, and I can’t shelter them from the pain of mistakes or tragedy, 2011 has taught me that I can survive it. I have survived it. 2011 was a very good year and a very bad year
High points: My youngest son entered the Marine Corps in April and is flourishing. I was worried about that one. He’s a hard head and has authority issues, but he’s in his glory. I could not be prouder of that boy, and so relieved he has found his bliss.
My eldest daughter and youngest son married their true loves.
My youngest daughter is pregnant with grandbaby number two.
I survived yet another one of hubby’s Achilles tendon surgeries.
I faced a couple of monsters in the closet. Ignoring them only caused me anxiety, so I just flung open the door (with the lights on!) and went at them. They weren’t so scary after all.
I had a few books release, and wrote a few more.
The very bad part of 2011 was as many of you know the death of my nephew. But even through Timothy’s death there were remarkable silver-linings. One of them was realizing just how resilient humans are. My brother amazed me. How my sil held up, I still don’t know. Through their tragedy, I came to understand just how amazing we are as a species. While we are experiencing excruciating pain, we still find ways to reach out and comfort others who are hurting too. We have the strength to do what needs to be done, because it needs to get done. We have the capacity to continue to love even though it’s terrifying.
I realized I am capable of so much more than what I am currently doing. I feel like I have been idling for too long. 2011 taught me that there is no more time to waste. I’m getting it done like there is no tomorrow. Because there might not be!
So watch out 2012, I’m going to burn a swath right up your ass!
Did anyone else get a life lesson 2011? Feel free to share.
But, before you do, please make sure you stop by MSW Monday to meet our newest murderous maven, Miz Josie Brown. Josie will be blogging every other Monday and I promise you, you will not be bored. Josie is a dear friend of mine and I could not be more excited to have her as part of our group.
Please make sure you stop by and give her a warm murderous welcome!